I make a mistake,
Hell, I do it again.
For every ‘wrong’ a ‘right’ you gain.
‘But’, Like always,
A big bad But,
I don’t, cause if I did,
I wouldn’t repeat the same one’s again.
That’s when everything turns around,
I carelessly do it, I slip up,
Purely scrutinizing the pain infecting them,
And of course, lapse again.
My ear’s hear,
For what rightfully is hers to hear.
New curses and old ones,
Loud and clear.
I fight my tears,
Since I have no one to fight for.
If I had,
No doubt I would have pained them,
All over again.
I merely gaze at my victim,
Watching worry and stress,
Coil from all around,
I realize I aint the prey,
I was the seeker.
I hunt with my hungry eyes,
Trap them with my negligence,
And eat them with my Errors.
Stunned to find my mind
Blank with Nothingness.
All the while,
Staring at my dupe,
Cry with horror and terror
I remained unmoved,
The monster in me,
Must be acting upon its instincts.
You make me want to rip you apart,
To tear you into tiny little pieces,
To throw you away into the dark
Where I’ll never have to set eyes upon you again.
I hate you.
I feel heat inside my head.
IT hurts to think.
I jump up and down,
Trying to drown the pain inside of me,
I remember daily nights, thinking,
Being with you, Must feel like,
Inside a flower. Resting.
A sweet smelling heavenly place
Lying down hushed.
Breathing in the divine scent.
And now, Blue flames
Keep scratching my already vulnerable heart.
Like long bloody nails scribbling that black black board.
Run away from you, I will.
Kick you, I will.
Harm you, I will.
Impair you, I will.
Yet! Go with you, I Gladly will.
AS much as I can loathe you,
Dislike you, Hate you,
Bitch about you and Hurt you...
Alas!! I cannot ignore you.
A wish I did not request was ‘Two great friends’
I did not know I needed them till I simply loved them
Tears they wiped and broken hearts they mended
Lucky I cherished them before my life ended.
A wish I did not regret was desiring.
Desiring to be loved by them.
Some wishes I was granted, others denied.
Yet, confusing, to them how happily and evetually I became a gem.
Then came a wish, I wish never happened.
A humiliating deed, An emabarassing story.
The purity of my innocent li’l heart blackened. Perhaps,
It was black already. I do not know. I was sorry.
I felt sad, offended and disappointed.
For I had done something I never do.
My friends were more sad, more offended and more disappointed
For they knew I did something I never tend to do.
And now, I feel most sad, most offended and most disappointed.
I cried myself to sleep saying,
I did not want to do it,I did not want to do it.
Stupid, Stupid Me.